#replies and interactions on here

[inkskinned]

you know, you know. no gods, no masters, no kings on pedestals. everyone is fallible. death of the author. you know! you are balanced about your intake of media - you allow the wiggle room, the grace, the gratitude, the skepticism. nobody above criticism.

but still. a weird gut-punch feeling, something akin to betrayal. you read the article. surprise! an author you love is actually: a serial fucking predator.

well, shit. what now. no, you knew he was a person (all people are), but now you're wondering - what have i overlooked by accident? what messages have i internalized that are strange and cruel? and also, like, what the fuck?

his actions lay a thick glaze on top of everything. like each place is now ruined, opaque in a new way. but okay, fine, you've done this before. you knew better, right? you've been betrayed by many a cherished childhood author.

still, this stickiness. fuck. can you pick up that book again. will you read it to your children. you've recommended it to others - will you ever do that again? and of course, of course, no parasocial relationships. you were theoretically above this kind of sentiment. but the artist informs the art, right.

so it's not something as clear-cut as feeling he owed you, specifically (a stranger) better behavior - just that you kind of, in a distant and odd way... sort of trusted him to do better. it's not like a real trust or something speakable, just the faint hope that the product (good books) was a thin representation of the soul. now it feels like the product (good? books?) was a mask. in some small or insignificant way, your previous support of this person lent them power. your money and your time and your laughter.

and the thing is - you have this terrible, echoing sensation. how many times will this happen? over and over. you find out that the singer you love is actually a predator. you learn over drinks that your favorite high school english teacher is in jail for what he did to her. you listen to the news idly and suddenly discover that a woman you used to idolize has been abusing her kids for an actual eon.

what can you touch without the static melting off. you can't even really complain about it too much (you were supposed to know better, and besides, you don't want the same re-split "it's not your fault, love what you love" basic advice), but now it's here. somehow, it feels like - you let him into your life.

it's not that things need to be pure or an artist has to be like, endlessly perfect, mindful. demure. it's more just this terrible truth that has been replayed through your veins so often it feels criminally vain. power corrupts, absolute power corrupts absolutely. did you want any one person to be worth that power?

it's just that he wrote books where he seemed to understand that. he seemed to know about hierarchies and unfair systems and bigotry and privilege. you thought they were books about what it means to struggle. you thought they were about having power and still using it for good rather than for control. he spooned you a narrative of being a good guy, a kind soul. you fucking bought what that fucking monster sold.

maybe that's why they were fantasies, after all.

[izzypaw]

every social media except here gives me so much anxiety now 😭😭😭

[chloesimaginationthings]

omggggg your crying child is sooooo cuteeeeeee more of him pleaseeeee

I’m glad y’all liked his design! I hope to draw him, and the other ghost kids more

[rainyfey]

hiiii I love your stuff I came for Dandadan but wowue wowwwwwww very cool. I saw your stuff in the Dandadan tag but didn't notice they were all you at the time so hi I'm glad I found your blog

Aww thank you so much, that makes me so happy to hear!!

Ahaha i feel you on the not noticing -- my art style shifts around a lot depending on which brushes I'm using. Hopefully the variety is as fun for you guys as it is for me! Looking forward to sharing more drawings with y'all soon 💖

[doc-art]

tumblr's always gonna be my favorite place to post art tbh, the stuff folks leave in the tags is just too good--absolutely unreplicated on other sites

[joongdunking]

That explains the radio silence from JoongDunk.. 🤣

While there's still no reply from Dunk, Joong told chatgpt to analyse a photo of JoongDunk 😂

Dunk finally responded to him after 50 minutes and their replies were an interval of 1-3 minutes

It's so funny how Joong even offered himself and posted all the different photos from his beach vacation. So those photos were NOT for us 😆

And posting a photo of his back with "haven't even tried a bite, how could we know it'd be delicious or not" is crazy 😭😂

In between replies, Dunk also sent a good night voice message with a 😘 which is finally for us since he's sulking? 😂

What rambutan means:

Joong what did you do to have Dunk sulking at you for 3 days??? 🤣🤣😭 He couldn't take it anymore that he had to take it to Twitter and use(?) us to get Dunk to reply him (I mean it worked 😂)

And I remembered how Joong changed 1 month to 1 week so quickly because he knows he can't stand not talking to Dunk for so long 😂

It's indeed a happy 3rd anniversary to Dungjangs! Despite sulking, Dunk still came online to wish us! 💛

[lena-in-a-red-dress]

The last few days have been rough, for obvious american reasons. As with many others, I have extended family I highly suspect contributed to his win, which is a double-whammy.

It's been hard to get into a creative mindset in light of all this, but I'm going to try. For my sanity, if nothing else. For escapism, but also to continue to create queer art, which feels more important now than ever.

Just, bear with me for a bit...

[salt-baby]

at some point in disability you stop wanting to "get better" and this is just really hard for able bodied people to understand for some reason

[triona-tribblescore]

Sorry I disappeared for a month, no idea why but tumblr felt a little overwhelming for a sec there- got lots of art to post though dw!! I'll do it over the next few days alongside answering some asks and responding to all the lovely messages left :D 🤍

[stillgotscars]

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[t-errifier]

feeling a little down about myself & my blog lately, i cannot lie.

[kiyomitakada]

Was kind of curious, do you have a main blog? You don't have to answer if you don't want to!!

i do not </3 or more accurately i do but it's frozen in time from when i was like 13 and i can't edit the bio or profile picture anymore lmao so i don't follow anyone new because they would 100% block me for being a bot and/or a minor (i am not a minor) (anymore) (i'm also not a bot but you knew that)

[callmelittlesanshine]

Everythig reminds me of him…

So I made this:

[erabu-san]

I just start a new account, doing the archon quest again, And I FINALLY See it.

Xiao x Traveler?

Yes.

I SAW THE WAY XIAO LOOK AT THE TRAVELER.

I'M ON THE BOAT NOW, I'M ON THE TRAVELER X XIAO SHIP!

YES !!!! 😭😭😭 there are so wholesome i love them sm

[crossbackpoke-check]

need to clear something up to prove a point:

EDIT: this is the worm song i mean!!!

[dollypopup]

listen, genuinely not trying to tell anyone how to run their blog or anything, but i am BEGGING y'all to stop posting the rude anon asks you've been getting. it does not matter how witty you are in response, how passionate, how funny, how well researched, how nice or how mean, just in responding, you have given them what they want: both your attention and a platform for which they can spread their vitriol without having to attach their own name to it. none of them have neutral intentions. they are not interested in a genuine dialogue.

think about it this way: in a court case, lawyers will sometimes ask or say something that will undoubtedly earn an objection. it can't legally be considered evidence- but they say it because, objection or otherwise, the jury still heard it, didn't they?

when you respond to them, it doesn't matter that it's an objection: you have given them the platform they want. YOUR name and your followers and our tag. how often do we see negativity there because someone has slunk into an inbox and spewed trash there? we don't have to let that keep happening. starve them out. don't give them the opportunity.

I'm not saying to turn anons off (though, admittedly, there would be a lot less stress that way). I'm just saying that we don't need to answer them or post them. I know it's hard. I know it's frustrating. But just think about that cowardly anon refreshing your page every 20 minutes and SEETHING because you refuse to give them the time of day. hell, if we want to commiserate about it, let's start a discord server! a group chat! we're a small fandom, most of us interact already, so let's become better friends. DM me and I'll make a group or send a link. but please, please, just respond to the nice anons. we do not have to do haters work for them.

and if you're interested in a lukey pookie group chat, hmu!